I\’m jus\’ sayin\’

January 24, 2008


Filed under: Uncategorized — Bwandungi @ 8:07 am

TV Show on right now: Project Runway
Footwear: None. Toes are cold
Popsicle flavor: Banana(n)
Living out Loud Project: In development stage.

My birthday just passed. My family always remembers my birthday (well, except my brothers — sometimes) and I got emails and phone calls from them.

Afro GirlMy presents included a plush stuffed dog, a singing birthday card, a drawing tablet and money (muahahahahaha!). I was going to get an iphone, but they’re not yet supported in the place where I’m going so… I have to be careful. I’m still thinkin’ I might want to have an ipod touch.  It was a great birthday. In honor of my bamboo tablet, I’m going to draw every day and practice my skills!

Yesternight, I was watching a documentary that was done by a young man who belonged to the Bloods in California. For those of you who are not familiar with the Bloods and the Crips, there is a brief history of these gangs on the Wikipedia website.  CRIPS is an acronym for Community Revolution In Progress and was supposed to follow in the footsteps of the legendary black panthers in stimulating and leading social change in African American Communities.

Somehow the leaders were unable to get the followers to work towards changing their societies. Instead they became drug dealers, they were responsible for robberies, murders and other such violence one against another. Then one neighborhood had a disagreement with another neighborhood and since it persisted they broke away and became the Bloods.  Now this is where it becomes a little complicated. Since these gangs ruled neighborhoods, if you were not affiliated with the one where you lived, there was no guarantee that you were going to be protected! They operate on a very complicated system with varying hand symbols representing each group, neighborhood and so on and so forth. One wrong move and you’re toast – literally!

In watching the documentary a number of things became increasingly clear in my mind.

  • Some people cannot count very far. There seemed to be only two options for these men. Work at McDonalds OR sell drugs.
  • Education is failing this society so much. If the love of reading has not been cultivated in a child before they are 12, there is a great likelihood it’s not going to be there! The giant is about to fall!
  • Speech therapy is not such a bad thing if it sounds like you have a wad of cotton stuffed in your mouth.
  • Poverty as a state of mind will always triumph over even the best education.
  • If you dedicate yourself to something, you will get it. Even if it’s murdering other people’s children/mothers/fathers.

By the end of the show, I felt such a sense of despair. For a short period one summer, I lived with an African American girl in some of the poorer neighborhoods in St. Louis. I got to see the cycle of poverty instilled in children whose only desire was to be like the characters they saw on TV and in movies, like it was all real. I cannot help feeling sorry for these people who have had to compete in a world where the odds are stacked against them from the beginning.

I don’t know how to feel about these impoverished Africans who are also American. No leader past or present can bring about a change that would mean anything. Most of them will not be involved in the political process about to happen and may not even know how to say his name. I met one who had no idea who Condoleeza Rice was!!!!!


I’m moving to Canada anyway.



  1. She looks so sad. What happened to her?

    Comment by tumwijuke — January 30, 2008 @ 1:48 pm | Reply

  2. Not sure why she’s sad. I don’t think I meant for her to seem that way.

    I’ll try again! I found a great picture to try of a masai woman. Why are they so interesting?

    Comment by imnxtac — January 31, 2008 @ 7:06 am | Reply

  3. happy belated birthday.
    somehow the image of you sitting still long enough to draw doesn’t quite fit 🙂 You were always the queen of talent and multi-tasking anyway. nice.
    PS: Picture looks so much like someone i know. so much. complete with facial expression.

    Comment by jasmine — January 31, 2008 @ 12:27 pm | Reply

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